想太多，想太多？

哇塞，才不到四天，五个人从我们班 “ 调” 回去他们去年的班。。

A 班，酱难读下去吗？可能吧。。

没有一个知己在身边， 的确难熬。

想到去年，真的活得要生要死。。

都怪自己想不开，凡事都很固执， 定下来的东西，就会傻傻地守着，不可以改变。

到底怕什么？怕背叛自己的承诺？怕出卖朋友？怕是非？

人言。。可畏。

小小年纪，想到这些，

未免太复杂，太幼稚，太为赋新词强说愁了吧？

可还没见过世面呢。。

以后要怎么出去？

说的没错啊。。是温室里的一朵，花？

哈。。 常常只会说别人花瓶，温室里的花，看他以后出去怎样活。。

现在自打嘴巴了吧。

花瓶又怎样？至少他们还有个样好看。

自己。。？

人与人的相处之道，好难啊。。

可有说明书？

2009

tomoro is the day! all the books.. assignments and stuffs are coming straight back to us. it's been.. how many years?? one.. two.. 3..4..5.. the 6th year in this school! i often wonder, if i've been studying in other class instead of A class, will my annual results be the same?

the peer pressure in A class.. well, it's the thing that drives me to study hard. i remember, form 2 and form 3 are my happiest year in this school. cause i've a bunch of frenss, high and crazy. till i step into form 4, well everything changed.. a complete opposite of those years.. i've been through a very emotional year, 2008. the sweet moments of orientation, close frens in different classes, struggles to keep those friendships,.. studies.. and then comes those rumours.. misunderstandings.

form 4 honeymoon year? haha.. i guess not.

now form 5 lu.. one year left.

.

speechless. i'm so damn frustrated right now. wat the heck?!

camp camp camp, and i dun have my phone with me! ya understand me?

on the phone with..

a she : apa kau punya model?

me : w580, yesterday i bagi kamu punya, sudah repair baik?

a she : oh. wait ah.

(paper moving sound, sili sala sili sala.)

a she : ello? kami send out warranty sudah.

me : wat?! apa tu?

a she : send out warranty.

me : ha? apa send out warranty?

a she : send out warranty maksud sudah bagi supplier untuk check la.

me : o, jadi... (trying to squeeze out a malay word..) bila bila.. (aiyah) how long?

a she : maybe.. 2 weeks o.. paling cepat 2 weeks lah,,

me : haa? apa?

a she : kerana kami perlu kirim ke sana.. saya rasa bout 1 month.. lebih..

me :..........

2 weekss?? one month??? ohhhh, jz take my life!  

now i'm using my old fo-own, no taking picture.. no music.. no jogging with it.. no watsoever.

if ya wanna call me,  or sms me, pls state ur name.. cause i don't know who u're at this moment.. cause i dont have ur contact munber.. all of them are inside the impaired phone.

geez.

C.A.M.P

i've been thinking of this for days.. maybe weeks. what am i gonna write in my next post? sometimes it really drives me crazy thinking of this. i would rather surf the net, listen to songs.. or read a book.

i had jz joined a camp few days ago.. to be honest, i din quite get the fun of the camp, though it's the last. maybe it's because i had spent way too much time in the "kitchen" during the camp. i would like to have fun with others.. especially with my close frens, instead, i'm stuck in that small little sizzling boiling spot called DE KIT CHEN. hey, i'm not complaining ok. :P

i dun like to wash, clean, pick up other people's mess ,but it's my responsibility wad.. might as well do it, 'happily', cause whining wont help much. u'll be able to see all sorts of people in this camp,.. i mean ALL SORTS of people. some are.. always willing to lend a hand, some.. boast around the things they did (eventhough they din seem to help much) , some are like, 'i'm sick.. i don't feel well.. i'm scared..' haihyo, mafan betul these type of people. some.. only mind their own business.. some like to grumble on tiny whinny things.. they jz wont stop.

HOWEVER, thr are still some people out thr who would care bout ur feelings.. help ya, do things togetha.. those are definitely some sweet memories..

da 很（太）有计划的阿姆 - kah ming

da 厨房阿姆 - me

da 炒菜阿姆 - joanne

da 厨房杂工 - joy　

da vico佬- kevin mah

da 通马桶佬- paul tiong

da 关心大使- kit how

da 见碟勇为佬- bernard

da funny 佬- kut

da 傻傻佬- jiayang

da gila 佬- jai seng

da 好笑佬- ccm

da 吵阿姆 - kebing

da 天使凡人阿姆 - fionna

da 整蛊专家佬- 可可

da 卖水佬 - whyetchien

da 大佬- jacky

da 小佬- 明仔

da 霹雳扒拉阿姆- wenyi

da 拿钱佬- 咸

da 面包要切皮佬-vincent chai

da 不吃蒜米佬-kitwee
da high老-ken

da missallthefun佬-szechun

all camp chung hua ajks.. 辛苦了。

谢谢大家。

SHARE :Why First Borns Rule the World and Last Borns Want to Change It.

read it! i've to say that, it's TRUE!

Ah, sibling rivalry. Relentless competition, name-calling, hair-pulling and blame-shifting plague households with two or more children everywhere. Can't we all just get along?

Well, sure, sometimes. But the reality is that all siblings aren't created equal and they don't get treated as such. Firstborns, for example, often get shafted because parents are stricter with them, while later-born kids might have fewer rules. And everyone knows that the youngest seems to get away with murder because parents have seen it all before. And where's the middle child in all of this? Forgotten or overlooked. --A HEM, totally right!

As a result of a stricter upbringing, for example, firstborn children tend to be more extroverted and confident, while second-born kids are more rebellious and open to new experiences, he says. The youngest child is usually the most creative and can be manipulative to get his or her way.

taken from msn.

Firstborn:
Personality: Firstborns are ambitious, assertive, dominant and disciplined compared with their younger siblings. They're determined to succeed yet fearful of losing position and rank, and are defensive about errors and mistakes

Professions: The oldest tend to pursue vocations that require higher education, like medicine, engineering or law.

Compensation: A recent survey by CareerBuilder.com found that workers who were the firstborn child in their families were more likely to earn $100,000 or more annually compared with their siblings.
Job level: Workers who are firstborn are more likely to report holding a vice president or senior management position, according to the survey.

Famous firstborns: Oprah Winfrey, Hillary Clinton, Winston Churchill, Sylvester Stallone and Bill Clinton.

Middle:

Personality: Middle children are good at negotiation, peacemaking and compromise, Dattner says. They are easygoing and diplomatic and are usually closer to friends than family.

Compensation: More middle children identified themselves as earning $35,000 or less per year than firstborn or youngest children, according to the CareerBuilder.com survey.

Professions: Middles tend to have excellent negotiating and people skills -- anything that employs these skills is a great fit. Middle children from the CareerBuilder.com survey said they work in nursing, law enforcement, firefighting and machine operation.

Famous middles: David Letterman, Richard Nixon, Madonna and Princess Diana


Youngest:

Personality: Youngest children love the limelight and are used to sitting in it. They are charming and creative, have a good sense of humor and manipulate others when they want to get their way.

Compensation: Last borns were the least likely to report earning six figures, according to the CareerBuilder.com survey.

Professions: Youngest children often gravitate toward artistic and outdoor jobs, according to the OSU survey. They're also successful in journalism, advertising, sales and athletics. Those who responded to the CareerBuilder.com survey reported working in art, design, sales and information technology.

Job level: The majority of last borns in the CareerBuilder.com survey held administrative and clerical level positions. They also reported being the least satisfied in their current jobs.

Famous younglings: Jim Carrey, Billy Crystal, Steve Martin, Cameron Diaz and Rosie O'Donnell.

the joy/ depressing part of BLOGGING

hey yall, guess wat yo..
everyone has started blogging since... de last few months? many new blogs pop up, and like wat i've done wen i started blogging, all of them are finding waysssss to stand out, to impress.. the ones who're reading their blogs.. hm.. i guess it's hard to find bloggers who don;t open their blogs to the public.. BUT! there's one fren of mine who does that! and SHE's pretty AWESOME.

u see.. wen i first start blogging, like posting my first and ever.. er.. 'post'?
my feelings are like.. u noe.. excitement, nerviness etc etc, all mixed up in a bowl of.. watever. cause we're all thinking.. wat if noone reads my blog? wat if noone drops a comment? wat if they find my blog lame? wat if.. wat if.
and WHEN U GET UR FIRST COMMENT, wwwwwoooooohoooo, u'll be thanking him/her for being so kind to drop a comment. the first post is always lame.. say wat' my first time la.. not good at blogging la.. support me la, do drop a comment la'.. stuffs like that. being humble, is good!

wen u get good response(s) back, u'll get keyed up and.. here comes the second post..
there're many types of bloggers..
some : like complaining.. like being an emo.. (i'm one)
some : make a mountain out of a molehill.. 'owh, today i saw a wat.. blablabla.. and it's like a wat blablabla.. i'm so happy blablabla"
some : write diaries.. 'i went to..xxx then i xxx and i xxx."
some : show videos.. jokes.. stories..
some : keeps blogging though noone's leaving any comment
some : stops blogging wen noone's leaving any comment..

phew.

well..i noe wen i blog.. i let all the feelings (happy / sad) out of me.. and i feel so free to say watever i want here..that's the good part of blogging. however we all get discouraged wen we dun have any comments back. and start to envy those who gots lots lots of responses. haaha..i noe i'm one,
are u?????

有人说

有人说
我很霸道

有人说
我难相处

有人说
我很奇怪

有人说
我心里不懂想什么

有人说
我很执着

又有人说
我太敏感

有人更说
我放不开

到底还有多少‘有人说’的话？
难道这些都是忠言？
所以逆耳吗？

我原来不是自己想象中的那样不起眼
原来我品格上真的有很大的问题
只是一直以来
他们都是在背后说

该是反省的时候了。