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tests ova! again..
it's our first test in form 4, and i'm hell not ready for it.. so, i'll be awaiting for the frightful moments to come wen all the test papers ssuuuppss down onto my tebaaeell..

sick of the concert rehearsal.. always doing the same old things same old things.. they didn't get better anyway..

a rather busy life will be starting soon, for me..
:P but i'll still have fun, lots of fun..

bla..

jz tell me.

wat have i done wrong?
honestly, i really don't know
seems like
everyone is
rejecting me

ignorance

misunderstandings

refusal to chat

cold treatments

hateful stares

here i am
alone
like it used to be

pending tests
too sad
too down
too tired
to deal with

shall thee
give me strength?
give me courage?
or perhaps
numb my feelings?
end my sorrow?

cause i
have had tried
changing me
and

it failed.

back again lo

哇， 好久没写部落格了。 不知大家有没有想念我？我想也只有我心爱的哥哥才会要看吧。近来的状况还蛮好的啦，只是忙了一点。昨天是vaLENTINES DAY 叻，猜猜看我拿到几份礼物？ZERO! HAHA, my close frens received some.. really jealous of them le.. noone give me present.. bohoo.. T.T

today.. concert rehersal again lo, choir did ok, 高材生 aslo ok lo.. jia you la, me so sia soi, sing solo there, sia soi betul, din manage to hold my mic properly.. so, my voice jz blur blur there lo..

tomoro, BSMM will be having its first activity in this yearr, hope many will SHOW UP SHOW UP! hehe, estimated members-- 200 something eh.. tomoro will be fun!!!!!

haha, addicted to jay chou lately.. not because of his appearance o.. it's his songs, really good la, love it.. thanks to my bro, cause he's that one who'd introduced all those songs to me.. hehe, managed to find piano sheets on those songss, HAPPY!

today, i realise that not every fren will appreciate wat u do for them la.. they jz haih ya, take them as granted..i can proudly say that i've change A LOT, i mean A LOT, i'm always smilling now.. help ppl wen they needed them, more considerate to frens, being quite patient all the times.., jz be as happy as i can everyday, cause i noe we must appreciate every second on earth. so frens, pls, try to treat each of ur frens de same la, don't jz focus on those pretty ones and cute ones la, i noe i'm neither of them, but i got feelings too ok.. u guys are always forgetting me..

feelin.. tangy.

many frens left/are leaving.. is miri that bad? or should i say is malaysia that bad? perhaps..

well, it's nice wen many of us think of going out to study.. (including me), but why do they like to leave before form 5? because they can save more time? dunno..

guo wei, i actually feel sad when u said that u're leavin, i feel that u're really a good fren.. though we're not that close, but i'll remember u always, cause u treat ur frens real REAL nice.. so.. good luck to u! cheers! to a better life!

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my thoughts of the day,
in this very moment, im still learning to manage my wobbling emotions.. i realise that no matter how the person treats u.. good or bad, it won't affect the way u treat them.. if a fren treats u like nothing, will u treat him/her the same way? haha, the old me would probably treat them the same way.. but now, i dun think i'll think in that way anymore.. congratz to me wohoo!
sometimes.. their little actions sour my heart..(splashing vineger right onto my heart, OW! IT'S SHRINKING!) owh.. how could they? but now i think that i'm jz over reacting, OVER REACTING! soo.. i'll get over every single thing that's sad.. and be the happy me! smile~~ for me.. ;)

:p so late.. chai post the tag..

Bold the statements that are true for you.
Italicise the statements that you wish are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, tag 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse. - u name it..
I'm totally smart. how i wish i'm..
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. - the more the better..
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with girls. - but not realli desparato-ly obsessed wif em' though..
I'm obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now. - why shudn't i?
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant. - free meals..
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state. - I wanna leave here..
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes. paper.. pens..haha
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet. - i get fat..fast..
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant pastime.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary. - like duh..
I like a person of the same sex.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.

blek.. spending time doin this.. haih yo,.. but.. it's fun!
tagged by debbie and that kurt..

now.. i would like to tag...

my go gor!
bonnie!
lii ming!
steve!
jim!

girls.. all got tagged le..