really CONfused..

jz read chung ong's blog, can't deny that wat he said is true..
it's holiday, and u me him her should be spending it with families! wat on earth are we doing? going to school everyday, can't even have breakfast with my family, torturing my stomach, everyday milo milo milo. sien le.

thinking at another perspective, hm.. if we don't have all those activities going on.. we won't have spent so much time with our frens (quite fun too) and wat bout all those competitions? performances? that we will be representing our school to go out there to compete, to show ourself, mei zhong students.. are we actually doing it for the school? or our own benefit and glory?

argh, that's wat i'm really confused bout.. too many activities revolving around, i like some of them, there are some that i'm particularly not interested, and i was like, forced to do it.. to me, if i don't have any interest in that thing, then i'm totally not motivated to do that thing properly.. it's like wasting my time!

it's been so so so long since i hang out with my best frens.. shing nee and esther hm.. i miss them so much.. the others are always fooling around.. the guys.. trust them nomore, non of them can be ur best fren.. even if they say it "of course u're my best fren", they dont reaaly mean it..
i should get over it.

no one, no one, no one,
can get in the way of what i'm feeling
( not even family)
alicia keys-noone