friends are fading.. again..

hm.. feel stressed lately, workload are increasing.. increasing, and increasing..
i started to get lazier every single day, sleeping during class is already a habit.. i feel, sinful.. like not respecting my teachers.. and not respecting myself.
maybe, it'll jz last for some time, it'll go away soon. and after that, i'll get back on my feet, and maybe start to feel more happy wen i'm studying.. who noes right?

amos left us today, early in the morning. i din go to his farewell party, does that means i dun care bout him? i can tell u that i DO CARE! i noe what situation i'll be in if i were there, maybe u guys will think that i'm cold blooded, or i'm selfish, or watever it is, i dun really care.. cause i noe that inside me, he's my fren. and that's more than enough for me. it's not about how often u spend ur time with a fren, for me, it's bout little little memories u have with him, even a small thing that u've done together with him, can rest in ur heart forever.. thanks for the memories that u've given me..

friends are fading.. fast. those once so called 'best frens' haha, best frens no more..dunno why? these type of things.. always happen to me.. i'm tired of going to that block everyday, really tired, i'm exhausted. i often wonder, haha, why should i be the one who are always going to them? maybe i should start to live my own life without them, everyday stay in class, do my homework, read books.. better..

by, hypersensitive thung.

回忆

昨天真的好开心哦。在dynasty 吃 buffet le.。 而且是 MUDAS请的。。差不多全部 counsellor 都有在，还有top 5, game masters, quatermasters, p.a le..

when i reached there, i was shocked to see a few of my frens wearing t shirt and short pants.. wase, geng a.. and i thought my outfit was a little bit too over.. like wanna show off le..really sorry la.. i really dun have the intention to do so..

i was very very happy to see my mudas.. especially athirah them.. they all looked great last night. almost all of girls took pics with me.. so happy.. haha, can't describe that kind of feeling to u guys.. it's jz like heaven to me wen i was with them..

there're bout.. forty plus of us last night in the wat 'rossita" cafe i guess? haha, we're quite noisy, haha, the waiters and waitress seemed a bit unhappy cause we're jz.. too playful la.. disturbing other clients.. hehe..

i sat beside jong ling and kurt.. that kurt really guo fen o, keep telling cold jokes.. haha but i still can laugh cause the jokes are really stupid... it was hilarious to see kurt eating, keep stuffing his mouth with food.. and laugh and talk at the same time..haha. it's really a fun time together..

and thank you to my buddies.. liiming, raymond, whye tchien them.. for the compliments.. haha, i was really happy to hear that.. though i noe i have flabby arms.. whole body fat fat but still wear like that.

took quite a lot of pics.. and i'm glad i took a pic with shiwei at the last minute before i went home.. hehe, thanks to gali.. if not i'll regret for the entire of my life.. haih.. i also forgot to take pics with other mudas.. hope they can send me the pics which have me and them inside..

nothing much to say.. jz wanna show yall some pics.. feel sad because last night might be the last gathering for us counsellors and mudas.haih.. life goes on.. again..



sot sot de kurt, i look awful la..



mudas.. quite blur a..




shin yee.. hehe so pretty..



cindy.. cute..



galiiiii



shi wei and me! too far le.. can't see.. fat*




pik jeng and jia yi..



fiona and lii ming o.. whispering there..




jong ling.. ^^

THANK YOU MUDASS! I HAD A GREAT TIME! THANKSSS A BUNCH.. I'LL ALWAYSS LOVE U GUYSS!!

orientation's over, many ppl are blogging this..it'll stay in my heart forever, all those sweet and sad memories.. i really love this orientation, cause i can be with my frens every single day! now that's over, haih.. back to my boring school life again, what will accompany me? my homework...

learned a lot in this orient, spent lots of time with my frens.. my lovely frens..
awh, really miss them now, shing nee, lii ming, kit wee, donald, shin lee, jong ling, joanne,kit how, jai seng and of course, my muda, shi wei.. haih, little chance to be together liao.. i did stayed overnight for the last two days, but din help much.. haih.. congratz to those who're in charge of the closing ceremony! u guys did great! it was a success..

very happy, cause i received many sweet memories! from my frens and new student, i was so so touched, but sadly, haha, there's still no tears in my eyes, cause i'm scared if i let it all out, i won't be able to stop it, adui, tell u the truth la, i'll only cry when noone's around.. so, i guess u guys won't see me crying..never!(am i crazy)haha, gek dao when some new students said i was very fierce, haha, but still pretty when i'm fierce haha haha, make me soo happy le, though i noe it's not really true =.=

i thought i took quite a lot of pictures with my frens.. but actually only a few with my phone.. the others are with my frens camera.. so miserable.. now i only have a few my friends and me de pictures.. haih..i really really hope there's a second chance for me to take pics with them.. and guo wei, angry him cause he din tell me earlier that he'll not go to school after yesterday, he's going to tasmania.. will miss him.. hope he'll come back to school more often before he leaves..




(at night)everyone's blowing balloONS, except me cause i dunno how!



wahaha, they are setting up the line for the balloonS!



kelian kok chung, sleepy and yet still working o!




and i still have time to take pic with JOanne!



hehe, in the morning, sun still haven come out, then i take a pic with jong ling!



ah.. with lovely shing nee, new students around



my sweet mudas.. ah song, and my muda, shi wei! cute ge!



haha, mudas again.. kok chung and daniel! shuai ge!



ai yo, raymond and me.. we've been best frens for so long le..



haha, my new students, chong ching and leola!




shin lee, cool cool de pose there haha, me a bit sha..


i will miss ALL of u Guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

people change, FAST.

the SIXTH day... still have three more days left..
dunno la.. jz dun feel so excited anymore, not so happy anymore..
haih, friends are always one of the common topics i mention in my blog..
so, really hope u guys won't feel sien of this la..

as one of the counsellors, i'm really not doing anything, felt so useless, just so useless, maybe it's the reason why most mudas.. dun like me, or dun respect me..
haih, u've chosen the wrong person for this post! cause i'm not fit to be a counsellor! wen they have gatherings.. i dunno about it.. haih, maybe it's my own fault, i should ask them frequently on these type of things, take care them more..
but it's too late to say all these stuffs.. it's jz too late.

maybe it's a good thing to end the orientation, faster. focus on my studies. jz my studies. cause frens, are easy to find, but, hard to keep. i guess te mudas won't remember me after the orientation. like one of my best frens said, jz stay as happy as possible in the orientation, eventhough u noe some ppl beside u are not true, (they tend to say sthg that u like, pretend to care for u), anyways, i'm still happy, whether u're true or not, i won't noe. all i can say is, i've given my heart to u all, feel it?

OriENtation 2008

today's the third day, the most tired day so far..
afternoon we play water games, i;m lucky to be one of the station masters!!
so high!! we got really high before the new students come out from the hall.
all of us ajks are jz out there in the rain for the whole afternoon, setting up the games, really fun.. we hug together when we get cold, we even use the water balloon to play as fake boobs! hahhaa...

all wet wet... really shuang.. i guess i can say that we're lucky to have rain, heavy rain! and we're also fortunate enough to have the rain stopped jz before the new students go out to play..

i'm got a little bit angry when the one member of the last group spit out some words-- which i DUN like! she said" i dun FREAKIN care!" after she failed to put the balloon into the pail. really shao o.. tak ada discipline langsung.. but i din scold her or wat la, jz tell the group leader what she'd said.. hope i won't hear anything similar to this anymore throughout this orientation!

haih.. two days liao, our group still din get the best report award..really disappointed, cause i wrote one of them.. why? i also dunno why, maybe my suggestions and feedbacks are not good enough..

we still have six days to spend with the new students, and i'm happy to spend time with my frens, mudas.. after this orientation, i guess we wont have much chance to be together anymore.. so, i must treasure all these moments together, as happy as possible.. jia you!

HATE my class

today's juzt the first day, and i really hate my class, cause almost all of them are nerds! now i only got a few good frens left, one of my best friends has left, and sooner or later, the other one is going to leave me too! i'll surely miss 3A!

it's all because of my stupid brain, like shit a, dunno think wat wanna take chinese, now shuang lo, suffer the consequences on the decisions that i'd made myself! change pi la change. pay the price u fool!

1.1.2008

although it's the first day of the year, we still have to go back to school to prepare for the orientation but at least i'm not alone, cause i got my frens! family for the night time.

haih, today i saw something terrible, it's concerning a fren of mine, he's using the wrong way to relieve stress, i jz hope that i can talk to him, but, i;m scared of being a busybody. hope he'll be alright.

i also realized that a fren can leave u in any second, without hesitation... haih, say no more..