the last few dayss of 2007

lion dance training started on 28 dec, and ended today.
it was totally a new experience for me, i have never play chia (cymbal), or the gu before.. i admit that i'm a slow, really slow learner, it sucks when u can't play it right, after ur mentor teaches u for many many times.. the feeling is jz unacceptable, like it's telling u that-- u're freakin stupid! so.. realy sorry if i can't catch up.. but thank you for those who'd taught me..

aw.. i jz learned half half only, didnt manage to learn everything, cause it takes time... a lot of time.. still, i was happy cause i can spend time with my frens..

my brother went back to singapore yesterday-- a sunday, sad sunday. one month of holiday seemed too short for us, time's always running out when u spend it with ur love ones.. but it's a fact, he'd gone back to study, and so am i, i'll have to start going to school in the next few days, everything goes back to where it used to be.

hm.. have to wait half a year before i can see him again, guess he's not coming back for chinese new year. but it's ok, since cny has only a few days of holiday, it'll be difficult for him to go back to ipoh, too rushy. life goes own..

it's been quite a busy year for me, first, study for pmr, then for orientation and stuffs. this holiday is jz packed. but luckily, i still have the time to go on vacation with my family.. loved it.

31 DECEMBER 2007, many sweet and sad memories in this year, they'll all stay inside me for life. bye 2007, and hellooo to 2008.
best wishes to everyone, which include my precious family, and my beloved frens.

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i'm pleased. with my pmr result.
but at the same time, i felt bad, cause some of my frens din get straight As.. so, pls dun give up, u can start by working hard in ur form 4..

i dun feel any excitement at all, cause the name on the pmr slip is wrong!
wong shiau thung-- wong shian thung.. it's all my fault all my fault.. din check propery.. haih. can someone help me fix thiss?? GOD??? o no.. i'm a free thinker..
i guess i have to fix all the mess up BY MYSELF. huo kai la me.

tomoro lion dance training lo.. jia you for me, cause i'm slow and stupid, must focus o!

Back

hey guys!
guess who's back???????
ME!!!!!
ya.. yall won't feel the excitement i'm feelin' right now..
i was back here yesterday..
7am from kk to miri, i was sooo tired, cause i din sleep much.
why?
cause i slept at the airport, about 12 AM i arrived at KK international airport, then called a cab, went to terminal 2, sitting + sleeping on the airport chair, then 5 o clock check in at the counter. 7 am fly back to MIRI! geng a!

gotta tell yall that i learnt quite a lot of things during this trip!
the greatest thing from this trip is that i get to spend time with my family. My parents and my brothers. we had fun time together, the food there were great, (most of them la..) got jiao zi, bao zi, dong buo rou, thai+china style de food(excellent), man tou, mongolia cow's milk, beef satay, lamb satay, etc etc...

besides, the scenery were extremely stunning! it's like heaven there!
let me show yall some pictures! slideshow there. p.s. jz look at the view behind me,but not me, cause i'll spoil the whole beautiful landscape.

the place there was chilly, especially in chengdu, bout 14 degree celsius below zero o.. almost freeze to death. my whole face, the ears, the nose, the mouth were all NUMB.u can pinch them without feeling any pain... cool eh?

i ate a lot during this trip, hehe, more fat liao. the food there were mostly oily but they taste between ok and great. maybe it's a trick to keep warm?

i saw many unpleasant things there, a mixture of feeling came rolling in by those times, anger, sadness, sympathy. wat will u feel wen u see a young child, lying on the busy street, lunging his head up and down as a gesture of begging?
a middle aged woman, using a 4++ cute little boy, running around u to beg for money?
wat a pity! i felt anger erupting in me at the same time, how could they?
teaching the youngs to beg while they have their hands, legs, not to say their brains intact? how shameful.

still, as a whole, i'm jz a small tourist there, can't do something for them. i had a fabulous time there, it was an enjoyable trip! so, hope u guys can go to china, to get know the mighty history and the culture of it, take a look at the marvels of china, and experience their way of living. ( dun forget try their local cuisine!)

o ya, kurt, why aren't u posting? i'm waiting here.

so, i guess this is all for the trip in china. see ya guys!

New Hair, New ME!

guess wat? i had a new hair cut yesterday! at Brand On Street!
i had it cut short! look quite good with this new hair style(that's wat my family says.. u noe them de la) haha, but i personally think that it's quite ok, i love it!

i am going to Beijing the dAY after tomorrow o.. will be colddddd, gagaga.
this reminds me of cherng du.. eiyer, i was frozen during my stay there.
hope this trip will be fun..

New ME? now, i am going to change myself... all those bad de will go away soon.
bit by bit, i learn not to care as much as i do b4, how some of my 'so -called' frens treat me, u can treat me like.. i dunno, whatever way u like, i wont care that much, cause, that aint my problem buddy.
friends, come and go, u thought u're one of their closest frens? then u're WRONG!
never ever think like that, for me la, cause u'll get very ( i mean VERY) disappointed wen u found out that that's not the case..
so, agree or disagree, depends on u lo.

some frens are meant to be.. jz playmates,and they'll never be true.
u laugh together, u play together, hang out together, but still feel the distance between u and them..
they always think that it's us, who're not trying to make frens, not trying to get involved in frens' outings.. but if u're always the one who get left out, would u still, have the courage to hang out with them?

so please,beware, before u spit those words out, think carefully, ask urself whether u really want him or her to hang out with u.

no offense.

talking back bout the new me, i will jia you! thanks to my family, christine, and emilio, who're always there to care.

pika pika, today's mood quite good le.. thanks friends and family..
why so little comments de lately?? hm.. have to see what's going on..
maybe i;m writing rubbish or wat, so u guys are not interested ha?

bla, anyway, i still like to blog..
today i went to school again, luckily esther got go.. we went to
yumcha with other frens.. they're nice.. another happy moment 2gether..
later, i went shopping with my bro, wohoo, guess how much we spent on groceries?
approximately 100 bucks!jz on a few bags of crap/food.. so cool!

wohooo, and by the time i get back home, it's already late, have to rush,
eat lunch, bake cookies, go to kit wee's house..
but, din make it on the last one, cause the cookies need moretime than expected.
so.. really sorry guys..

by the way,so cham, amos's sick.. hope he'll get well soon.

thoughts for today---
i'm back on track again.. not feeling moody and sorry for myself today (after a lecture from my bro"), so, i'll make it last.. as long as i can. buddies, help me, will ya?

awaken

i started my morning, went to school for dance and sing rehersal.
after a morning of catching up the dance, i was already femished, and whacked out..
then in the afternoon, i was in the hall, with three other counsellors and mudas..

i started a conversation with one friend, which later turned out to be sort of like, LECTURE.
it was bout my attitude la.. my stupid attitude. i often gave people an impression of being cool, i admit that talking to me can be tiring AND IRRITATING, cause..i like to talk negatively, haha, that's what he told me, and i din even realize that till.. NOW.

he said, this is the thing he hated the most, in me, wei.. sometimes,
people jz dun change right(they do, but, not so fast bah) but i'll try la, so, my friends out there, please give me some time and help me, slap me wen i talk like that.

and i've also been told that i'm quite, haha, that's because i'm drifting into my thoughts.. or maybe i jz dunno wat to talk that time.. forgive me forgive me.

phew.. why am i writing all these crap?

aHAha..

remember that i said i xian mu u for being sick?
well.. now i no longer have to xian mu u lo..
cause, i'm sick liao today, hahaha..
so zhun meh?
haha, really zhun, caught a cold yesterday, this morning start to shiver, cough, flu..
then my mom says i have a fever.. but when we come to the clinic, it's CLOSED!
so, have to wait maybe tonight cai qu see doctor..
luckily, after having a panadol, my fever eased, now only have a sore throat, and a runny nose.
haha, see, i'm still healthy enough to update my blog o!

a FaiLure?

yea.. guess wat? i'm not going to chung hua camp!
why? cause i can't stand to be tortured anymore! not for the third time!
well.. u can call me a failure, too girly, shi bai.. and whatever that u can think of..

i decided not to go at the last minute, after i hear the briefing..
the rules are quite tough for this year, no short pants, no calling back to mom and dad, no junk food.. this and that.. so, i guess it doesn't suit me at all..

one of my frens said.. if u dun go, u will bei kan bu qi o.. and one said, dun go dun go lo.. haha, am i really that annoying to u?

i've been thinking bout that over and over.. really? really hui bei ren kan bu qi?

but still, i wish u guys good luck, have fun without me (cheh, like i'll ever be weighty to u guys)...

it won't make much difference anyway even if i go.. so.. byebye..

givE me some Response le..

SomeThIng Pleasurable..

jz listen..

Oh nuit vient apporter à la terre
Le calme enchantement de ton mystère
L'ombre qui t'escorte est si douce
Si doux est le concert de tes doigts
Chantant l'espérance
Si grand est ton pouvoir transformant tout en rêve heureux

Oh nuit, oh laisses encore à la terre
Le calme enchantement de ton mystère
L'ombre qui t'escorte est si douce
Est-il une beauté aussi belle que le rêve
Est-il de vérité plus douce que l'espérance

damaged, Badly

do u noe wat it feels like to be left behind?
do u noe wat it feels like to be the last one to know everything that ur frens did behind u?
do u noe wat it feels like when... u dun even noe who is true??
i noe.
maybe all of these happenings are ur own fault.
maybe u're not nice to them? acting too cool?
or maybe u're jz not worthy to have a friendship with?

nonetheless, why did u care so much? they won't let u be a part of them..
might as well live ur own life, bother nothing on whatever thing that's happening around..
if it's that way, will u be happier?

You don't have to say, what you did,

I already know,

Now there's just no chance,

for you and me,

there'll never be,

And don't it make you sad about it..

The damage is done

So I guess I be leaving

Cry me a river,

Cause I've already cried..

And it is breaking me down

Watching the world spin 'round

While my dreams fall down

Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down

No more friends around

And my dreams fall down

Is anybody out there?

Can anybody out there hear me?

Cuz I cant seem to hear myself

Can anybody out there see me?

Cuz I cant seem to see myself

It's gotta be a heaven somewere

Can you save me from this hell?

Can anybody out there feel me?

Cuz I cant seem to feel myself

Losing my way,Keep losing my way

Keep losing my way

Can you help me find my way?

Losing my way,Keep losing my way

Keep losing my way

Can you help me find my way?

CoUrage

Courage. Is this word familiar?

i guess this word revolves around every single one of us here, me, you, him and her..

still remember the first time u read in front of class? the first time u step onto the stage to sing, dance or talk? the first time u tell him/her how much ur're deeply falling in love with him/her?

see.. courage is desperately needed to do all these..

and here i am, finally have the guts to post out my first blog ever..

i dunno, maybe it's the urge of having all my sorrow, grieve, happiness, to be shared, with frens, with u guys.

today's saturday, a day in which i can spend all my time at home, infront of tv screens and my comp. Pitifully boring day, BUT!!! my bros and my mom are coming back tomoro, and all the noises will come back to this house.. haha, especially my little's bro screams and my mom's singing.. miss 'em (though sometimes they're quite irritatin'). and for my big bro, miss him LOTZ and LotZZZ.. the last time i saw him is on the month of june. And now it's NOVEMBER!!! It has been like wat... FIVE MONTHS! holy cow!

talking bout yesterday, it'd been a great day for me.. muda's first meetin, i guess,

and almost all the counsellors went to school to.. pei them.. say hao ting yi dian is to

guide them lo.. give opinion on their drama..haha but i did neither of them.. hhaha..

sorry a counsellors.. i noe i'm not being 'responsible' enough la.. cause i walked around here and there..

even went to the gym le :P.. *sorry sorry, pls dun bu shuang me o!*

in the afternoon, well i've a great time with my frens.. up there in block A... in that.. yi dian dou bu leng de room.. inside was steaming hot a, sweat like crazy..

we chat and chat , laugh and laugh the whole afternoon... hehe pei yang gan qing ma..

even noiser than the mudas.. sorry a mudas...

to conclude, it's amazingly cool!

jilly, amos, bak hock, choon man, ah ling, joanne, fiona, and hopefully kevin, kit wee and joy,

see yall on monday!